Sometimes I wonder how my life got to this point. There is something inside of me that has always looked out for others before I look out for myself. I focus too much on how other people feel and a lot of the time I disregard my own feelings. I know I want to be able to do more things for myself and not worry how someone else may feel. I know I’m an asshole, but my real friends know that I would do anything for my friends and family. But I can’t keep complaining about things that are my own fault. I need to be selfish every once in a while. I need to rediscover myself and be happy with my decisions.